I should have told you.

I fear that you will never know, just how beautiful you are to me. I fear that you never see through all the bullshit and see my heart. I fear that you will leave one day, decide you're better off without me and never return. I fear that you'll get used to the sex and the amazing orgasms just stop being amazing. I fear that I'll never make the kind of money I want to, so I can give us the life we so desire. I fear so much, yet because of YOU just looking at me, I fear NOTHING. I Love you, I hope that's enough for you, because your love is enough for me.

Life has a wierd way of workin out, I knew I felt this way when I was with you but I never knew how to say it. I feel stuck, like even though the clock kept turning and time kept moving, the moment you left is when time stopped for me. Everything is in black and white, no color and my motivation to do anything is sapped. I'm not depressed or sad, my life has gone on. I guess what I've realised my life, everything meant more, felt better and was just better with you. I should've made you understand how I felt.